This group is for those with a dark past. Walking in redemption can be difficult; especially when our past tries to rise up and bite us. Let's use this forum to share those struggles and offer encouragement and resources to one another.
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Over the past week, I have been praying for the ability to give everything I am and have to God. I sing in church and in the car that I surrender all, but the truth is; I don’t know how to surrender. I was the kid on the street who had to fight to survive. I was the only one I could rely on. I only ever learned how to fight; where I come from, surrender means death.
During my prayer, God revealed two things to me. One, the first step to surrender is obedience. I examined my life to determine where I have been disobedient (something that is sometimes difficult to see). I spent the next few days praying over my daily activities, seeking God’s direction in what I needed to change. I found my answer in the book of Daniel. “Daniel made up his mind that he would not defile himself with the king’s choice foods or with the wine which he drank.” (1:8) Daniel, Hananiah, Mishael, and Azariah not only grow stronger in body and physical strength, but also “God gave them knowledge and intelligence in every branch of literature and wisdom; Daniel even understood all kinds of visions and dreams.” (1:17) I decided a good place to start was to bring my body into obedience. How can I expect to see manifestations of the Spirit in my life, if I am unwilling to do what the Spirit requires? So, I have begun a 2 week Daniel’s fast.
The second thing God revealed to me is that we, as a body, have forgotten how to worship. I am still a fairly new Christian, so I don’t have anything to compare worship to. I know John 4:23-24 says that the Father seeks those who worship Him in spirit and in truth, but I thought that’s what I’ve been doing. I needed to consult some spiritual mothers; and I learned that there was a time when worship meant falling on our knees or prostrating ourselves before the Lord. Today, we stand, we dance, we shout, and we raise our hands; we honor Him with our lips, but our hearts are far from Him. (Matthew 15:8) But on our knees is a place of humility and surrender. “The humble He guides in justice, and the humble He teaches His way.” (Psalms 25:9) I realize that if I want to learn to surrender, I must assume a stance of humility physically and mentally. In Revelation 4:10 the 24 elders fall down before Jesus and worship Him forever. To truly honor Him, I can do no less.
The humble will be filled with fresh joy from the Lord. The poor will rejoice in the Holy One of Israel–Isaiah 29:19
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