I am very sorry to hear this and I can definitely relate, it is never easy seeing those around us pass onto a new season of life when we feel left behind and forgotten. It is so easy to get caught up in the lie and believe that our life does not matter and we have no worth etc. BUT guess what that is all a lie!!! Your life is important, you are engraved on the palm of Gods hand and he does not forget you!!! I am speaking from experience, I just turned 30 and all my friends around me are married with kids, or gaining some great promotion or God has revealed some amazing ministry for their life. And I am here not married and really asking and begging him to reveal his purpose for me!!! Delay does NOT mean denial and honestly he works all things together at the proper time. What may seem like perfect timing for us is not always his timing, BUT he always knows best and that is the HOPE we cling to that in his time he makes all things beautiful, in the mean time he asks us to trust him and wait on him, but we can rest assure he will never leave nor forsake. Remember his perfect promise in Jeremiah 29 "he has plans to prosper and not to harm us but to give us a hope and a future.".
I know it is easier said than done, but don't get caught up looking at someone else lane/race look ahead to your amazing race and all he has in store for you and keep your eyes fixed on Jesus the author and perfecter. He will surely make away! Don't give up, because he has NOT and will NOT give up on you....
I am also sorry to hear about your boyfriend, relationships can be tough, maybe take sometime to really find peace and truth in GOD, allow God to heal the pain and the hurts of the past, allow God to restore you and hold on to his promises.... When we know who we truly are in GOD it really changes everything in an amazing way!!!
Praying for you and I pray you stand firm on his truth! Take care and remember with GOD the latter will be greater then the former and NO weapon formed against you shall prosper in Jesus name! Amen!
Thank you Lindsay for taking the time to reply to my message. It felt like my last day on this earth this morning when I wrote that message and when I saw a reply from you, I cried even more, knowing that someone out there cared to read my message and that I am not alone. I cried so hard reading your message and I thought right then that I needed to talk to my boyfriend. I got hope from your message and thank you again. My boyfriend was at work at the emergency ward when I sent him a text, he came out to talk to me over skype for hours and he was very sad to hear me cry. I feel much better and I am very grateful to God. I hope to talk to you soon
I am very happy to hear you are doing better and I am so glad you know that you are cared for! I pray today you will remember and know your heavenly father cares for you and loves you so much, there is no greater love or hope then that. Of course it is not always easy to believe that, but I pray that every lie you have believed will be uprooted as you hold on to the precious truth and promise that your father loves you and he has amazing plans for you, no matter where you have been, what you have done, his love for you is unconditional and eternal. Just hold on to him and believe that!
Praying for you!!