My name is Dave and I live in Lethbridge , Alberta. This is a thought I had that I wanted to share with anyone whom reads this.
I was watching tv and decided to tune into a show call Beyond Scared Straight and it hit me really hard. It reminded me of things that I would wish to forget. Most of you know about the me that I am now. Hard working, friendly , easy going, good humor, down to earth, I think that is about it. But what you don't know is that I was never always that way. I was angry a lot. I felt like the world owed me , I felt that I could just say fuck the world. By doing this I shut out all the positive, all the things that I could have a avoided. I was a terrible employee for starters. I used to do a half assed job and I would befriend a lot of my co-workers. I would lie cheat and steel. I never really took things seriously and that is probaly why I could never hold down a job. Look back on it if I had the choice I would not even hire me. Lossing a job was so big deal for me. Having a cocky attitued towards everything I thought my stuff didn't stink and that when I got fired I felt like it was their lose. Also the company I kept was not good. It never dawned on me that these people didn't care about me. I almost ended up in jail I don't know how many times and I think by the good grace of god I didn't. I could belly ache and say it was all them but the truth is that I did my part just as much as they did. But when they sold me out and made up lies to save their own hide for some real stupid reason I felt like they were still my friends. I pray almost every day that God will forgive me for all my sins. All the people that I hurt. All the trust I lost. All the pain I caused to the people around me and to myself. I was never good at keeping good company. But looking at where I am now I can finally realise how much I am blessed. I would first like to thank a great person Renee. This women hired me at shoppers when I felt like no one eles would. She was the first person , aside from close friends and family , that saw potential in me. And to this day I thank her so much for giving me a chance when no one eles would. She let me grow up and be the person I always wanted to be. Not matter how many times I wanted to give up and quite she always had a way to bring me back down to earth. Then it was the people around me that I worked with helped me to find the confindence and stregnth to be the best I could be. They gave me hope when I had none. Now as I sit here in front of this computer saying what I have to say , not overly concerned if any one reads this , I look at my beautiful life and I fell preaty damn good. I have a lot to be thankfull for. All of my friends and family that never quite on me and were always there for me. One of my favorite songs is Hell Yeah by Neil Diamond and I almost feel like he made that song just for me and others like me. Please give it a listen if you want. So I close friends that I love and care for each and everyone of you. And I thank you all for the impact you have made on my life. We may never talk much , or ever ask how we are doing but again I am glad to have each and every one of you in my life. I couldn't have done a lot of this alone. I know there are a lot of people I know that don't go on this site. They are not a spiritual as I am but I did post this on face book so they could read it from there. I guess the underlying message is never , ever , loose faith. We are always held by the lord and he is there to walk with us down this road we call life. I lost my faith when growing up in a house full of anger. But I found the light again thanks to a friend of mine. He saved me from the enemy and showed me Gods love. I wrote this to get a lot off my chest and I know there is more that I could write and perhaps I will do that later. I just wanted to share a part of my story with you all. Thank you for your time.