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Comment by Catherine Kurzdorfer on May 13, 2012 at 4:04pm

I am so glad to write to loved ones in Heaven and I will pass this on! 

Comment by Catherine Kurzdorfer on May 13, 2012 at 4:00pm

May 13, 2012  Mother's Day   Dear Caroline and Amber:  I just found out that I can write a letter to Heaven! I wrote a poem awhile ago and that is what I will send to you both today:                                                                                                                                                                                                                      MY Girls      What can I say?  I am so sad you've gone away, I miss you so everyday,  I love you still and always will   So many memories, happy, sad, smiles and tears will sustain me through the years.  What can I do?  Be so glad God gave me you!!  Both your lives I had privilege to, and because of Jesus, again, I'll be with you!!!   Love Mom  PS Caroline, hopefully Amber's (twin) and your big brother Adam will write soon.  I will give him the address.  We love you, both always!!!!!                                                                                     

Comment by Debbie Ann Moon on April 8, 2012 at 7:23pm

Nennie,

    Its been 6 years since you went home, but I still miss you everyday. There is not one day that I don't think about you. I remember you showing me how to read, write, talk, walk, and all the other good things you showed me. I really miss having our sat. night popcorn while watching the "Golden Girls" and "Murder she wrote" why were trying to figure out whokilled who. Most of the time you won, but that was ok with me bacause I loved you more than anything in the world and I loved to see you happy. On Sunday mornings you would always get up and cook me the best breakfast that I could ever ask for. You loved to cook for me, and I loved for you to cook for me. I wanted to be around you every waking moment.You were my everything and I loved you so much. I sit back and think about you and I wish I would have had more time with you so that you could show my kids the love that you showed me. The day you passed away part of me died with you. You and papa were my favorite people in the world. When I was younger, I had the same dream night after night that something was going to happen to you and I would not be there to help you. There is no one in this world that I love more than you!! Not alot of people know it, but I come and talk to you all the time and I am the one that is putting flowers and pictures on your garden while I am talking to you. Maybe its not in the flesh, but I am still talking to you.I miss you so much. I miss papa to, but you were my number one and I will always be your number one!! I hope you are looking down on me and are laughing at me when I fall, when I make honest mistakes, and when I talk to you. I miss you so much. I look at your pictures and I can almost feel you with me. I have your picture in my wallet and I look at it everyday. I can only imagine the day that you and I will be together again. That will be the best day of my life!!! You and I have a connection that I could only dream for anyone to have. Everytime I hear "Wiskey Lullaby" and "Amazing Grace" I think about you and again wish I could hear your voice and feel your touch one more time. I can hardly wait until this day comes!! I love you and I miss you more than anything..... Debbie

Comment by Shannon Knight on March 17, 2012 at 9:12pm

Steven,

Are you there?    These are letters to heaven and I am writing to heaven hoping and praying with all my heart that you made it there.  Ever since I returned from Mexico, it’s been heavy on my heart.  It’s been 10 days since your passing.  The pain in my heart is not just from watching you suffer, but knowing that I quite possibly could have been stronger in witnessing to you about the Lord and His salvation.  I did not know death was right around the corner.  I got on my knees and prayed throughout the day and before bed.  There was a cross right over the sink in all the rooms.   I begged the Lord to help me bring you to Him to believe in His salvation. I prayed in the chapel and I know the staff knew I was struggling.  They discourage us from getting too close to our patients because it might make leave our work as a patient liaison.  Getting close to the patient and then dealing with death can cause stress.  I can’t help it though, the day I turn that cold, I won’t do any of the kind of work I was meant to do.  You see they don't really understand that I answer to a higher Boss, our heavenly Father and He really is helping me through it all.

On the drive home from Mexico I knew they were flying you home to your country in a box and I wasn't sure if all my conversations with your wife were being shared with you.  She informed me as soon as you both arrived to the hospital in Mexico that you were atheist, but I already had that feeling prior to your arrival from our correspondence through the emails.  It was clear that you thought those who had faith in God, someone they could not see were not very smart individuals.

You were so sick and so fragile and I did not want to add more stress while you were fighting for your life, so I spoke with your wife knowing she would know best how to talk with you about God.  She was open.  She said she would share it with you and I believed her because she asked more questions each day.  I showed her scientific proof how prayer helps heal.  Everything had to be proven to you because you were a very brilliant man and it was not going to be a heart to heart that you needed, you needed facts.  I had shared my story with you about beating stage 4 cancer without chemo twice, once in 2008 and again just last October.    The only thing I do know is that in the end you said that if you survived you wanted to do charity work like me.  Your wife said you were shy and had never done that before.    You allowed me to pray and family and friends to pray.  You changed a lot the 12 hours before you suddenly passed. You hugged me and said, “Thank you, I will miss you”.  You became more vulnerable, your heart was more exposed and you were more authentic.

It will be the most significant “I will miss you” I have ever heard in my entire life. It will be the warmest good bye hug I have ever felt and I know I will remember you forever. I have never been through anything this touching or heartbreaking in my life.

March 7th will be a new day with a new memory for me. A day I witnessed courage you took no opiates for your pain even 12 hours before.   I saw the most beautiful love of a wife, having to let go after trying everything she could to save her husband’s life, she is the one that sent specific prayers for everyone to pray, and I just know we did.  She held my hand in prayer.   She was open to learning about God in the end and I hope that she and her husband’s private conversations were relaying what I said to her.  So that he did make it to heaven and that one day maybe her and the little boy they have will be coming to this site and writing him a letter in heaven, most of all so we can all see each other again in heaven.

~Shannon

Comment by Vicky Lyn on February 26, 2012 at 8:22pm

Dear Larry,

It has been a year since you went away

and I still love you as much as that day.

It has been a year filled with sorrow and grief,

from the loneliness inside I searched for relief.

Like river that flows I cried tears of sorrow,

watching and waiting for a brighter tomorrow,

The pain of my loss has lessened over time

but in my heart you will always be mine.

God has given me the strength to let you g

o for you are with Him, is what I know.

I am so thankful God gave me such peace,

that my deep sorrow I can now release.

You will always have a part of my heart,

for my love for you will never depart.

Forever my love,
Vicky

Comment by Emily Newkirk on February 18, 2012 at 9:54pm

                   Dear Margaret,

       You were always loved so dearly by everyone that you knew. You never met a stranger. Everyone you came into contact with loved you. You always had a sweet, kind spirit. It didn't matter what was going on in your life, you always had a positive outlook. You loved Jesus, and you loved the Bible. You lived by it, and that showed through. I know that you're so happy and celebrating in heaven right now. You don't have to use a walker anymore, you don't have to worry about medication. You're free. You were always like a grandmother to me. I loved you dearly. When you left this earth it was honestly the LAST thing that anyone was expecting. You and my mom were best friends for nearly 30 years and you were like a mother to her. You did everything together. I know that it's hard for her. But I know that you're looking down and smiling on us. I hope that you'll save us a place with you in heaven. Love you,

Love,Emmy,

you're adopted grandbaby! :)

Comment by Crystal Ann Hicks on February 12, 2012 at 8:16pm

Dear granny barns,

wow i really wish you were here with me right now i need you more then ever im suggling with my marriage and i know you would have answers for me and what i should do. you never got to meet your great great grandson he is a trip and i know you are looking down on him everyday and please keep him safe and protect him when i cant. i miss  you and you will always be on my mind i know you would have been so proud of the women/mother i am today! i love  you xoxo

Comment by David Sams on February 12, 2012 at 12:36am

Dear Whitney,

The news of your passing on this night is simply shocking to me. I am deeply saddened. I just saw you a couple of days ago, poolside at the Beverly Hilton, where we both were staying.

I wish I would have taken the time to look into your eyes to say "LET GO, LET GOD." But, I did not. I let the opportunity pass me by. Frankly, I just didn't seem to have the courage to say what was really in my heart. I let my mind talk my heart out of what I really wanted to share with you. 

Losing you has reminded me just how fragile life really is. You were right there--in front of me. Now, you are gone. All I can think about is how I should have taken your hand, looked into your eyes, and shared these words that my dad has told me so many times before when my own life seemed so complicated. He'd simply say, "David, God will take care."

Your music and passion has brought us such joy over these many years. While you won more than 400 awards--what you really won was our hearts. The song that I can't get out of my head on this night is your rendition of "I will always love you." Whitney, we will never stop loving you.

I sincerely hope and pray that you have finally found the peace that you have been longing for --and that you are dancing with the angels tonight.

Whitney, we will always love you.

David

Comment by Amanda Marie Waser on February 5, 2012 at 8:05am

Dear: Papal,

 

You've been so much in my thoughts, and I just had to drop you a line to tell you that I miss you and love you so much. It has been rough the last 20 years without you. I miss you every day. I still have baby marie the doll you gave me before you died. I want to thank you for giving me the strength to get through what your son has put me through. I know if you were here things would be much different, but you are not. So I just think about the times we were together and he would hit me and you would stick up for me. It has been a huge strength to me. I hope I am making you proud. I am married now. I know you would love him. He reminds me so much of you. He is strong and protects me. I can still feel you around me sometimes. Like when I am having a bad day or just missing you. I get a cold touch on my shoulder or a hug. I know its you. I also have adopted your other grandaughter. Well I guess now she would be your great grandaughter. I know I do not have many memories of you, but all the ones I have are good. I know one day I will be in heaven with you and I can't wait till I can hug you again and see your face. I can't wait till I can thank you in person for making me so strong. One day we will be together again. That will be the best day ever.

 

Love your panda bear :)