Hi Christine. First, thank you for the very nice and uplifting comment. I greatly appreciate you taking the time to show you care. Also thank you for the friend request.
No I haven't heard from anyone about food or help of any kind. I still have a little food but it won't last much longer. My electric is still on but for how much longer I don't know. I may be ok till I get a check from the job I am hoping to start this week. Or they may shut it off today for all I know. I count it as a blessing from God for every minute, hour, and day that it's on. I'm praying that I will get an e-mail today or tomorrow informing me when to come to orientation. I was told orientation would be this week. I don't know how many days/hours I will have on their current pay period. If they get paid this week and it's bi weekly, then it will be a little over 2 weeks before I get a check. But hopefully it will only be a week.
I have forgiven what happened. It took a long time though. I was deeply hurt over how things transpired. But I am not going to show up after 10yrs of not talking just to ask for help with food, money, etc... I don't feel that would be right. And they would get the impression that I only showed up because of the mess I am in. I would rather wait until all this has passed before approaching them. That way there wouldn't be any motives other than to reconcile.
Thank you once again for caring. If you leave another message and I don't get back to you, it probably means my electric has been shut off. I don't want you to think I am ignoring you.
Thank you for your kind words of encouragement and for taking the time to share your experience with me. I have not had feelings of rejection for this child its more like shock and stress. I will welcome our baby with open arms and so will my husband. Right now its so surreal and we both are kinda silent. Thank you again and God bless!