hey Darlen i saw what you posted on living as a teenager and first sorry it took so long to reply i've been out a lot. Second you need to get help from an adult you trust, councilor or any one really. Because you cant do this on your own, and I know God will help you through it. If you need any thing ells let me know another thing you can do on this website is scroll over help! and click crissis help and go from there i hope i helped you in some way let me know if you need anything.