I can't believe that I just got divorced
I had a 10:00am Case conference meeting at our provincial law courts today. It was supposed to be an informal meeting with a judge to determine where we stand in our divorce proceedings. I didn't want this to go to court since I believed I should be obedient to 1. Corinthians 6 and rather be taken advantage of than to fight anything before a worldly court. I conformed to all my wife's wishes with my lawyer present. Since we were in agreement the opposing lawyer made the motion to move straight to a divorce. I was totally taken by surprise - what was supposed to be just a preliminary hearing ended up being my last day of marriage. We got a divorce three days before our 22nd anniversary. I am devastated and so heartbroken about this. I still love this women with all my heart and I really hoped the Lord would touch her heart and change her mind. It's been five years since she told me that she doesn't love me anymore and it still hurts just as much today. I really don't know how to move forward from here, we have four children together and both being believers I didn't think that divorce was even possible. How am I supposed to live with this constant pain? I know that all things work together for the good of those who love him - it's just really hard to see any good in this right now. But I know he loves me and he's carried me this far. He is my hope and salvation. Please pray that I would not waver in my faith and that I would continue to place my trust in him!