Hi there! I thought I would share this with you when I saw your profile.... yeah, yeah, I'm stalker. LOL Anyway, I want you to listen to this song and I really hope it helps you in what you're going through. :) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HqOkZiOb9u0
I too have had low points in my life where I have just wanted to end it. The horrible pain of depression is something few people understand. I cannot imagine what you must have been feeling when you wrote. if you ever need to write, I will do my best to be there for you. Don't give up. You have a life worth living.
How are you today? I hope you are feeling better and learning to love life because you have such a wonderful purpose even if you don't understand what it is. Our purpose is what is in front of us today. Each day Our Lord gives us another day, it is a day of purpose. I hope you have had time to see a physician about your depression because healing is the first step in fullfilling your purpose. Recall daily that God has not given us a Spirit of Fear but a spirit of Power, Love and a Sound Mind. 2 Tim 1:7 Also, you have everything already to communicate verbally to anyone. I know this because Mark 11:24 reads "Therefore I tell u whatever u ask for in prayer, believe that you have recieved it and it will be yours". I know these scriptures in particular because they are written on small pieces of paper in my wallet and when I start doubting I reach for them in my wallet and read them aloud. Some days I read them all day long because the word of God is a very present help. Im praying for you Lise.
No you are not alone and yes there is HOPE! And YES, you are of great value and worth. I don't even know you and I consider you of great worth. Now this may sound strange coming from a preacher-type but have you gone to your doctor about the severe depression? My wife went through pre-menopause stuff several years back. She was depressed, anxious, had panic attacks and cried often. It got so bad we finally took her to our family doctor, whom we trusted, and she put my wife on some meds that really did help. I think it was Lexapro. She took the meds for about 1 1/2 years and her system balanced out and she came off them. She has done fine since. She still struggles with anxiety once in a while due to the continuing hormonal changes but it is entirely manageable. You do need to seek some help if things are this bad. It could be you need some counselling or it could be medicine you need. DO NOT feel bad if you need one or both. It does not mean you are crazy or strange. There are times when it just gets to be too much for us to do on our own. And there are often true physical problems that can cause the symptoms you are experiencing. There are fine, well-trained and trustworthy professionals out there who can help you.
You are a special person and of great worth to your family, your church and to your Heavenly Father. Never forget that! Pray for guidance and seek out someone who can help you through this very trying time. And promise me you will call or write before you decide to do something final. Any time of the day or night. Praying for you. God bless!
I can't say I know everything you're going through because I don't... But I do know this beyond a shadow of a doubt. Ending your life is NOT the answer. I have been much too closely attached to suicide over the years. At 11 years old I was the first to come upon my mother when she attempted suicide by gunshot. Fortunately she survived but the incident greatly affected all of our lives and not for the better. Then in 2007 my youngest sister committed suicide and it tore our family up. It still bothers me and I know it does her husband and daughter even more. Whatever you do, call me or someone before you take such a final action. I preached my sister's memorial service and the verse God gave me was this
Ecclesiastes 9:4For to him that is joined to all the living there is hope.....
As long as you are alive there is HOPE. You may not feel it or know it but there is hope. The passing of this life prevents any further pain, this is true. But it also prevents any further victory over the pain and suffering we go through. We CAN HAVE VICTORY! No matter the pain and suffering, Jesus can carry you through it.
So please, call me, write me, message me, or contact someone else before you do anything so permanent. 417-861-5664. email@example.com
I just wanted to reach out to you and let you know you are not alone. Depression has to be the single most toughest thing to deal with! I hope this site and support from fellow worshipers helps to lift you up so that you can carry your self to a better place. Keep coming back when you do not feel well inside. Click on BibleGateway Commentaries on the home page and let the word of God comfort you. This is how I like to start my day and if I feel depression or otherwise creeping in, it helps me to remember that in our Lord's embrace, we are perfect in every way. Let God take your depression away. You will have to let it go though. If you need to talk, message me. Keep The Faith, Natalie