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Comment by Tiffany Michelle C. on March 8, 2011 at 1:36pm

In late 2009, I began moving into an amazing relationship with God. I was calmer, more focussed, and almost always thinking about God or the Bible. I wanted to tell others about Him. Then I ran across this show and began to get obsessed with it over into 2010. I told myself to be careful and not let it get between myself and God, even talked to some strong Christian friends of mine about it. But I couldn't stop. I wanted to watch or think about this show constantly. What I should have done was limit myself, but I did the opposite.

Long story short, I began getting depressed. The only thing that would cheer me up was watching that show. It got the the point where I seriously wanted to commit suicide, though I never attempted it. At first I'd attempt to ask God to pull me out of this despair. I read Psalms a lot, which did help me. But God was telling me to limit myself from my obsession with that show and at this I balked. I told Him that I'd rather continue this way than give up my obsession with that show, even saying I didn't want a relationship with Him anymore. Thus I remained depressed. I began admitting to myself that I was rebelling against God and eventually got to where the very mention of God would make me feel uncomfortable.

That was the darkest, and most confusing, time of my life thus far, and if that had continued much longer, I really think I would have renounced Christianity. I eventually told myself I needed to ask for help and advice, so I did. I was too embarassed to talk to anyone but my dad and some online friends about it. They prayed and gave me some advice.

I finally limited myself from the obsession I had developed (and stuck to it this time) and my depression stayed for about two more weeks, but began dissappearing. As I couldn't watch that show, I began focussing on my relationship with God once again.

 

All throughout my depression, God would still show Himself to me in some ways. I mentioned that I'd read Psalms. I found out that David (who wrote a great number of the Psalms) seemed to feel the same way at points in his life that I was feeling during that point in my own life.

God is so amazingly patient and forgiving. I had turned my back on God, yet He did not turn His back on me.

"If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness."

~I John 1:9 KJV

Comment by Tara Deihm on February 27, 2011 at 7:55pm

I'm sorry,I miss typed. The age of my abuse was around 2 not 20.

Comment by Jeri Sue Wilson on February 27, 2011 at 7:50pm

This is the story of some major life changing events in my life that occurred in 2001. It is for all who are interested, but more for those whom I have known for many years, yet didn’t have a connection with during this time in my life. It will be a long story, but there are different elements that I have tried to encompass so you have an understanding of what I went through and how it affects my life now. Feel free to ask questions as I may have missed something or it wasn't clear. This is my story, about my life, about what I personally have experienced, nothing more, nothing less. These are my experiences and how I have personally had to figure them out for me and how they affect my life at this time in my life.
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2001 started out great; I was living in Columbus, OH, I had had a great start to the New Year. My life was on a great high until I received a phone message telling me that my maternal grandmother had unexpectedly passed away. It was devastating for me and something I wasn’t ready for at that time. With the help of a good friend and my family I was able to make it through the funeral, the grieving, and healing that comes with such a loss.

I was feeling like I was doing well when I received a call from one of my sisters May 29, 2001 informing me that Daddy had passed away. I didn’t experience the traumatic grief I had with my grandmother, but I was saddened. You see, I hadn’t had any communication with my daddy in about 6 years due to a decision I made because of his alcoholism and how it was affecting my family. I prayed for him, thought of him, and inquired about him whenever I talked to one of my sisters, but didn’t have personal contact with him. I always felt he would die from cancer (he was a smoker most of his life) or from scirocis of the liver because of his drinking. He did die from cancer related causes. Yes, I did mourn and grieve, but not with the intensi

Comment by Tara Deihm on February 27, 2011 at 7:47pm

I was born into a violent and abuse environment, surrounded by sex and drugs. My father was a heroin addict and my mother was the breadwinner, often working 2 or 3 jobs at a time to support us. She was a cold woman, incapable of expressing emotion, and incapable of nurturing.

 

The sexual abuse began when I was very young (around age 20. I was conditioned for my future, a child prostitute. I finally ran away at 12, but by then sex was the only way I knew to affirm myself. To survive, I did the only thing I knew how.

 

Illicit drugs became the only way I could cope working in the sex trade. When I wasn't high, working the streets, or dancing in a club; I was in prison. I don't even know how many times I have been arrested. The first time was for prostitution, I was 15. Almost every major event in my life happened when I was in jail. I earned my GED, birthed my son, lost my second husband, and found out that I am chronically ill in jail. I believed that I would finally find peace and death in jail, instead, I found peace and life.

 

It was the testimony of another that led me to seek the truth in the Bible. Once I realized that Christ, and only Christ is the only source of true redemption; I had the direction to truly change my life.

 

I went to a inpatient Christian program for traumatized women, graduated, and remained as a staff member for a year. Today I am a full-time college student witha 3.9 GPA. I am reunited with my son and siblings. I have found a great church, and the coolest pastor ever. I have met an awesome man, and we are engaged to be married.

 

I never knew life. I never lived life. I don't know if my life is redeemed, that implies that something lost has been found. My life is something new. Only God can make something out of nothing. I now have a chance to reach to others who never had a chance, and teach them the truth, Jesus Christ is the true source of salvation; and through