Really long story with a lot of heartache summed up: I was married for 5 years. 3 years into our marriage, built on our mutual relationships with God, my husband told me he no longer believed in God. My world was shattered, and our marriage fell apart. On our 5th wedding anniversary, he informed me that he was filing for divorce. It's been almost 14 months since then. I had to sign divorce papers saying that I agree that our marriage was irreparable, even though I know that it wasn't. But as much as I can forgive my ex and forgive myself, I can't make him forgive me. Logically, I know I don't want to be with someone who doesn't want me, but it still hurts. Every day I pray that God my find His way back into my ex's heart.