On November 1st 2010, I lost my cousin to suicide. I miss her everyday , we were really Close She was a bright girl and had some much to live for. She was only 14! She loved animals , loved Nature. I sometimes find my self wondering where is God in all this pain? I found my answer through mY priest at my church. He has also been helping to, and I am soo very thankful God has sent him to help me.
I have been recently been diagnosed with depression! I do not want to go down the same path as she has. I am getting help, but still feel my self struggling getting through a day. I dont think I will ever get over here death.But the pain is getting less. Please keep me in your prayers as I go through this diffcult time.
I know how you feel. My cousin also commited suicide. And he was 14 too. I was only 12 at the time, and I really didnt understand why he would do such a thing. March 6th, 2006 is the day I will never forget. God was right there with me through the pain and the suffering. I still cry over him because it still hurts. And he's been dead for 7 years now. Now I am 18 and I wish he was still here. But remeber God is with you through everything you go through. I will keep you in my prayers.
I loss my husband who I was with since we were 14 years old. So I can relate losing someone so dear to you can be devastating and life shattering. This December will be 3 years since his passing, it still rough and your right you never "get over the death." We need to learn to live with our new reality and live differently because of it. I've found that prayer in the morning and night and listing to worship throughout the day has helped restore my love for life. Pray to god ask him to help you seek a new way of living with this grief in your heart. He will transform you into a new person; simply open your heart to your healer. I wish you many blessing and pray that you continue to seek god every day, it's the only way. Peace be with you.